2018 was a wild year.
There were hella ups and downs for me. i started the year with a lot of optimism. and for the first part of the year, things were …okay.
I was happy, i smiled a lot, i was more or less confident. what could bring me down?
Oh ho ho. A lot did.
I’m not going to delve into details just yet, but the second half of the year was near traumatic. I experienced a lot of hurts but the great part is I learnt something from all the pain.
So as 2018 draws to a close, I have decided to make an affirmation to myself.
One of the biggest lessons I learnt this year, is that I will only ever consistently have myself. While I will have a support system and friends around me, they are human too and will experience their own ups and downs. Sometimes they may drift away, or we’ll just stop talking. And that’s okay, that’s not their fault.
Through the ups and downs of this year, i learnt to stop leaning on others emotionally and to lean on myself.
At the end of the day, i’m truly all I’ve got.
so as 2019 approaches, i have a promise to myself.
I’m going to fall so heavily in love with myself that I will never accept a love that is beneath me.
I’m going to be so kind to myself that I will never again allow someone to speak down on me.
I’m going to be so full of light, that I will no longer require other people to shine through me.
I’m going to be so happy to be me that never again will I try to be someone else.
I suppose these are my goals for 2019, to seek peace within myself, rather than from outside.
2019 will be the year that I finally put myself first and live in the peace that comes from being secure in who you are.
So as 2018 closes, I have one thing left to say:
Stay fluffy
Stay soft
Stay kind
Stay beautiful.
The Loving Kind 